Such a mess

I'm stressing out
Yeah I'm breaking down
Falling over the edge again
Sorry dear friends
I'm such a mess
Yeah I don't deserve to live
Rewrite the book cuz I'm all alone
No-one around me could ever know
Every night I just want to
Slit my wrist and die
Swallow your pride
Act as if everything is alright
Dead on the inside
I just don't give a dam anymore
Blackout and pretend that it isn't real
Another facade to conceal it all
Hide myself from the world
Cut my heart out and die
I can't take it anymore
It never seems to end
There's no place left to go
I don't know what to make from this
Time to make a choice
Sorry dear friends
I'm such a mess
Yeah I don't deserve to live